12.8.05 . 2:17 AM

It's been months since I last blogged.
After this hiatus, i realised how much i wanted to vent my frustrations, share my joys and maybe once in a while, talk about politics. Lol.
Much has happened and indeed, all these discovered my true self.
Supposingly to mature, I have yet to. Sometimes i stand across the street, digging at this despised image that resembles mi. My laziness took over mi. Consumed mi. Just like how i used computer games as an excuse to not do my homework. Or ponning lessons to avoid everything. I kept saying i want to improve, want to catch up with the momentum. Yet, nothing's coming to past. Im plain lazy.
My frens said i've changed. Like how i don't feel, don't feel guilty. I can just take anything in a shop and just leave. I can also vandalise in any way i like and walk away. I can sprout nonsense without having to care my fren's feelings.
Yes, i've hurt them. But, i really don't mean it. I do not know too where i've misplaced my emotions and conscience. If u think im an idiot, i agree with you. Not like i can stand myself.
What i nid is not some1 who scolds mi. I cant take scoldings. I dislike any1 to tell mi wat to do. I hate them who gave mi that "see i told u" attitude. I want frens who understand mi and support what i do, regardless gd or bad. When i see this people helping mi, i will change for the better.
Can we not be like some chao mugger, work hard for results? Can we also be some enthusiatic lot who occasionally hang out in town on weekdays and participate actively in CCAs, not juz a member?

You can be more enthusiatic in life!

Lots to continue. Shall take a break here.